Oh hello. I am minhui and I am 20.You're beginning to like me less, as you're lovin me more. xoxo.

for the first time, i got so emo in class.
i couldn't smile, i couldn't get hyper.
i don't knw what's the reasons, but i just felt so emo.
borrowed lala's mp3, plucked the earpiece into my ear,
went to the lil corner outside & tears started to gather.
didn't cry out, cus i'm afraid my classmates will see it.
it's not my usual self.
nvm, i don't understand why either.


would you be there to love to be with me?
would you swear tht you'll be the one to take my breath away?
would you stand by me to let me hold you tight?
would you be there? /:

sighhhhhhh, sometimes i don't knw whether to be postitive abt it.
i don't wna imagine too much, think too much.
what if it happens to be opposite of what i thought it would be?
how would i be able to take it thn?
tht's why, somehow i'm trying to be negative here.
whn it actually happens the opposite, it'll be something to be glad of.
however, this is hard to say.
i can't interpret your actions, i can't read your mind.
i don't knw why you'll act like this.
there's so much so much tht i wna knw,
but i can't find way & means to get the answers from you.


i'm afraid of what might happen whn i asked you.
i'm afraid of the consequences.
i'm afraid of how you'll think of me.
i'm afraid you'll distance yourself from me.
i'm afraid tht you'l dislike me.
i'm afraid we can't be friends anymore.
i'm afraid of everything sesame pea thing.

tml is basic science UT.
& i'm sneezing my way now while typing this entry.
bless me! /:

9:50 PM ·